I recognize that this is a slightly disordered way of looking at and thinking about food, but for me it’s a stepping stone because I’ve learned something pretty powerful in the last three days. I’ve reduced my daily calorie intake by 500-700 calories, andI’m not any hungrier than I was before. I don’t feel weak. I don’t feel more tired. No headaches, no dizziness. Other than a nagging sense of being generally unsatisfied, I feel fine.
In other words, I didn’t need that extra calorie intake at all. I really, really thought I did.
And as for that feeling of satisfaction? I just don’t think it should be coming from food, you know? So maybe this is the lesson I needed to learn, that food isn’t where a sense of satisfaction ought to be coming from? Or at least that I have to find new ways?